[He hears that and he thinks that crying would be good only he can't quite do it; there's a strange light and airy quality to this, and Teddy is a bit more green than usual.

Wasn't Billy with someone? Should he be looking back right now? Wasn't there someone else who was right here?]

Yeah?

I mean, yes, let's go, here-

[He doesn't let go. If he lets go, Teddy will-

He doesn't think about the letter that's buried deep under his floorboards and he doesn't think about everything associated with Gansey and Nathaniel that he's tried in the past year, and he doesn't think about the deep depression he promised Teddy he wouldn't get into. He thinks about how the color of Teddy's skin is greener than it usually is.]

Don't let go, okay? Jesus, I know it's a Titanic reference, please do not remind me.