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[inmyothertights]

[The thing is, Billy doesn't think he can hurt it. So he looks at Kavinsky a moment and squeezes, and it winds tight around Billy's fingers like a live thing, like some affectionate creature. He looks up at the other boy, then. His face is illuminated only by the glow of Kavinsky's soul.]

So?

Memories? Weird twinges in your heart? Deep and abiding love? Hate?

Anything?

cw suicidal ideation

[pillz]

[kavinsky doesn't answer right away. he's vaguely disappointed when he doesn't immediately die on the spot, because he's a bit of a lunatic that way. but what's striking, really, is how vague that disappointment is. ordinarily, the urge to die is louder than all that.

a little knot appears between his eyebrows. he searches. listens inside of himself.

it's so quiet.]

No, [he says, at last. it doesn't occur to him that nothing is the thing that's happening, that the net effect of having his soul removed to look at would be to altogether feel less. vaguely, he supposes he feels better. but they are flying above the atlantic ocean on a disc of blue light at the moment, and that would put him in good spirits any day.] Maybe you gotta keep it out a long-ass time before that shit kicks in.

[inmyothertights]

[He considers this a moment, his fingers stroking over the light of K's soul. Whatever Kavinsky is feeling (or not) Billy is being a little less introspective. Like all magic this fascinates him, and even more because it's untrod territory. He's holding someone's soul. And that isn't a metaphor.]

I thought it would be more like surgery.

[He tilts his head, looks a little hesitant.]

I should probably put it back.

[They're in a strange bubble. It's a place where Billy's magic isn't scary or weird or annoying. Kavinsky is, oddly enough, the only person who treats it that way. Like it's magic. They're flying, and Billy has K's soul, and maybe he just doesn't want to go back to the real world where his magic shop sells more books than spells.

He opens his hands a little, and the while pulsing thing floats a bit, just a bit, suspended between them.

(What Billy really wants is to study this more, his desire to know overcoming his good sense)]

[pillz]

What? You thought I'd be bleeding out on the fucking table? [kavinsky sounds amused more than anxious. disdainful a little, maybe, in an offhand and playful kind of way. the effects are subtle. he doesn't register exactly what this is doing to him, but it'll come back later, slowly, like the very first person to ever experience caffeine withdrawal, before they finally took that sip of delicious joe.

he'll want it again, someday.

but right now, he merely stretches his arms out like he's decorating a crucifix, chest open, wiggling his fingers in the free and open air. he feels better than he has in awhile. but it's quiet. subtle, not the spiky ecstasy of cocaine or the madness of dreaming. so he doesn't think it.] But we should do this again some time, [he says.]

[inmyothertights]

No, I mean I thought it would be more precise. Like if I took it out there would be an immediate reaction or something.

[Billy huffs a little, but he nudges Kavinsky just a bit.]

If you let me experiment on you with my magic, you're probably crazy, but you're also going to quickly turn into my favorite person.

[He starts to lower them. His temper has abated. He feels better. It's stupid and weird to feel better after removing another human's soul but Billy Kaplan has never really been normal.]

But let me know anytime you want to mess around.

[Magically, he means.]

cw homophobic language

[pillz]

[magically, he means, but kavinsky's smirk is wry and inevitable. he doesn't comment on it, entirely because he is distracted by what he just saw today. a wee, pessimistic voice in his head j'accuses billy of some form of deception, but most of him is too certain that it had been true. so many subtle cues and changes.

so much weird light. and fingers inside his chest.]

I'm a cunt, but I'm a cunt who likes weird fucking magic tricks, [kavinsky says, cheerfully. not-so-subtly, he runs a hand up his own chest, assuring himself that his ribs and nipples are where they used to be, and nothing in that way is amiss.] Come on. Let's go back and write a pro-faggot slogan on the sand.

[inmyothertights]

[He laughs.]

Okay, deal.

[And from then it's an easy float down, a night spent doing stupid things, maybe, but Kavinsky'll make Billy smile. Maybe that's enough.]