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[pillz]

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I can relate, but I'm sure my other self could as well. Did he ask you if you *wanted* to feel some pain too?

Well aren't you just a wicked bastardization of a stained glass window now. Or perhaps we both are, in different ways.

Talents like yours should only be pried away from your cold dead hands. And even then, it would never be theirs to take. There's a reason they're your powers and not someone else's.

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i think he asked me if i wanted him to fix it if he found a problem
i said no.
couldnt tell if he was low-key judging me or if tahts just how all of you sound, vale
your aesthetic.
like the cheekbones. mayb you just wake up a little bit supercilious
it's okay. some of us is into that.
& youre right about the powers

im the original. hes the shitty glass knockoff. dunno how you feel about you & yours though

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It's generally how we both sound, though I doubt it was actually all that low-key.

And I don't feel like either one of us is any more or less authentic than the other, we're just products of our situations. Mine just didn't have the same kind of push I had so he hadn't advanced himself nearly as much as I did. Maybe he would have in time, but why let him retread old ground when we could just skip that over? Plus, from what I understand I gained back a few years physically. But hey, time's a construct, so the internet sardonically saying these days.

But you, as you pointed out, seem to have the opposite experience here.

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[why is he talking about this.

he has no idea. but he is: talking about it.]

not opposite
shitlord just missed like 4 years that made me into me back in henrietta, & everythin here.

yo, what kind of push didnt he have
vick in the city wasnt exactly at a loss for ambition, i gotta say

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As I said, it's all about circumstance. It tends to forge us into different kinds of weapons. Even the Joseph I knew, as far away from you as he was.

And you're right, another Vale Aesthetic is he and I certainly don't lack ambition, but my other self still had some issues with myopia whereas I'd managed to expand my scope of view.

Do you resent him? Your other self who skipped those four years and this place?

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i dunno. his bf kind of liked his single minded bloodhound laser pointer brain.
what did scope ever do 4 anbody
besides existential fufilment i guess
but who needs that

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[there's a delay. but as inevitable as the tide, or perhaps as unexpected as weather:]

yeah.

[he doesn't actually miss sex that much, thanks to his particular brand of psychiatric brainwashing. but he does sometimes miss having a boyfriend to talk to.]

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And why is that? You said you're about as different from one another as possible. What of his do you wish you had? And what of you do you think he lacked?

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[a kavinsky leans his cheek on a pillow, flopped down on his bed somewhere.]

when shit happens it doesn't get under his skin like it does wit me
i know it cuz he ain't been through shit as bad as me, but it still fucks me off.

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That's only half the answer.

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what if it isn't

[what if he can't think of anything that he has that the other doesn't?]

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Then it's perhaps something you need think on in your own time and come back to be.

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Not a sexual suggestion.

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disappointing

[but a good defusion technique, if that was what that was.]

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I get that a lot.

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i guess i'm better at hand-to-hand than he is

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Admittedly, I can think of at least a handful of moments where that could have come in handy.

Is that from your four years in Henrietta, or your time here?

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here stuff.


how did you > widen ur scope

[he does remember victor being 'narrow,' though joey had hardly thought of it that way.]

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Perhaps you can tell me about that sometime.

I killed my obsession and it didn't follow me to the City. I became a doctor, like I'd planned to back home, and then the threat of registration forced the rest open. Plus, I wasn't keen to beat my own record for being locked up and if you stage a mass break out then you'd better make it count.

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when u say it that way it sounds like it was the dude in the city who widened his scope, & not you
you still have your obsession?
is your obsession a person or a thing
/was

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[Now it's Victor's turn to pause in his reply. It takes a few minutes before an answer arrives.]

I'm more the man from the City than I am the man who came here. I wasn't interested in going backwards to an earlier point of inexperience.

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if i was more the man from the city than i was who cam here, would you want to fuck

[it could sound forlorn. maybe it does. but somewhere in de chima, kavinsky rolls over and smiles at the screen.]

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[ And over in Nonah, Kavinsky's question makes Victor smile too, maybe he even makes a small noise of amusement. There's a particular brand of irony in the question being phrased in that way.

Victor would have killed for Joey in the same way way someone who was so inclined may break a theif's fingers for stealing a keepsake or family heirloom.

But Joseph Kavinsky feels like a firework in Victor's hand that could threaten to light it's own fuse at any moment. And Victor would look him in the eye and with a wolfish smile, all teeth, say "Go ahead, Joseph. Strike the match."]

Fucking is generally a low priority on my to-do list.

But for the sake of argument, would I, if were you more like him?

Unlikely.

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why

[joey wouldn't be offended. somehow, kavinsky isn't either.]

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Why do you assume he's the one with the better odds now?